Xenophiel

Today I was thinking about different relations and relationships, and I realized the following things: - I was always running from conventional relationships because I thought it would be so wrong wanting to fit in any concept, and maybe because I thought I'm not worth being loved by somebody without condition, so I would get hurt in the end.. thus I started running away, literally. - I am not good at prioritizing the things and persons that really matter. I think I'm concentrating to much on my best friend, for what reason ever… and I'm tending to neglect other people or things (like other friends or my studies) because of her, but

Ok, guys, just a nice little update for my profile 1)I'm observing my ill mother this weekend (and I REALLY am praying for her health). 2)I'm furious about bad big sisters hurting their little ones (actually, my best friend) and that I can nothing do about it 3)I finally got the time to upload art from about a year and now I'm exhausted by descriptions and so on... 4)I'm sh0cked h0w many pe0ple in my nearer surr0undings suffer fr0m wherever-cancer. I need t0 0verthink seri0usly the w0rth of living. Though, I wish you all a pleasant weekend - and please take a look at my artworks!

Oh boy… I got the shock of the years (literally) because my last journal entry was in JANUARY 2012!!! Gosh, what was I doing last two years?... Anyway, the reason why I'm more interested in deviantart.com (and restoring my own profile) again is a special friend of mine - she's creative and I adore her artworks and role-play! If you want, just take a look: http://ladynoiraile.deviantart.com She commented many of my artworks and made me feel ingenious and creative (that made me blush, too v///v) and moreover, she inspired me to draw and think about roleplay settings and much more crazy stuff... About the last two years: I think life